i want a ball-joint doll, and i will name her Adara and she will be gorgeous and photogenic and realistic and awesome. she will be the dark princess of the forest, and i will love her forever.

ugh new obsession, wtf.

OMG FRINGE OMG OMG OMG!!!

so basically Fringe is the BEST SHOW EVER. it's done by all the people who do Lost, but it is MUCH LESS CONFUSING. dude. THEY HAD LEONARD NIMOY ON THE SEASON FINALE, SO FUCKIN BADASS.

*bounces and jumps and squeals for joy*

holy shit, guys, if you haven't watched it yet, go watch the whole first season, it is the coolest thing EVER.

AND IT HAS A FEMALE LEAD WHO IS NOT DITZY, UNREALISTICALLY ATTRACTIVE, ETC!! her name is olivia and she is pretty but not porn-star-sexy like some tv women, and she's intelligent and witty and OMG GIRLCRUSH. plus it has the guy who was Denethor playing a crazy old scientist dude who is, quite literally, the quintessential mad scientist. \o/

in other news, yay for home! yay for grocery shopping! yay in general!!

and tomorrow i get MOAR nimoy: i'm seeing the new Star Trek, in which he apparently has a rather large role!! :D

♥ &fringe; ♥

i'm home!

lola is lonely, and i miss my boything, but it's good to be back. internets, you have no idea what you are in for this summer. maybe i'll get back into writing fic, maybe i'll draw, maybe maybe maybe. ;)

but now i have to drive to the mall because i lost my cell phone charger and my phone is now dead. poop. $20 for a stupid cord, what the fucking fuck! i hate the economy.

i have a cold, and i'm pulling an all-nighter to write two essays. i'm starting to lose patience, and sanity.

and then i discover...

my headphones are broken. the awesome behind-the-ear buds, that i love with all my heart, are broken. this is the third pair i've worn out. fuck fuck fuckity fuck.

so now i am in the library, dead from tiredness, and i have no music. I WAS GOING TO LISTEN TO FLYLEAF. ughhhh.

and once these two essays are done, i have two more to write by about 5pm on thursday, maybe earlier.

NOTE TO EVERYONE: PROCRASTINATION IS BAD. caffeine is gooooooooood.

FML.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE!! :3
i am so so sorry i forgot to call- i have two essays due tomorrow- but i thought of you so much today.
17!
one more year till you're legal~
wish i could nomm you in person, but this and the phone will have to do: OMNOMNOM YOU'RE THE BEST!! i'll call you tomorrow after class, promise. cDf
xoxo, babe. ♥

last night i dreamt that i seduced brendon urie at a panic concert where there were like 20 people in the audience. we didn't actually have sex, though, because i felt guilty and woke up. he gave me his phone number and i took him to five & diner for hamburgers. it was weird, because i could've sworn i was more attracted to ross than brendon. but whatever, they're all sexy, it was fun until i woke up and felt bad because i almost committed dream-adultery or something. chris is adorable when he's sleeping. he's cuter than brendon anyway. and already mine.

wow, how long has it been since my last update? damn you, college, you are a time-suck.

i have not read fic since august. what the fuck. i am completely out of the bandom loop. anything fun happen while i was gone? (besides bbwentz, obvs.)

IT'S SNOWING!!!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG SNOWWWWWW!!!

bet you thought you'd seen the last of me, eh? WELL YOU'RE WRONG!! :D

thinking of diving back into lj sometime... but i'm scared of all the catching up that requires.

things are going well, and i have so many happy things i could ramble about, but i'm just going to pick one, and it's totally completely tmi, so you have been warned.

( cut for TMI ABOUT MY SEX LIFE OR LACK THEREOF. don't click if you don't want to know. )

and so i bid thee farewell, i am off to shower and junk. \o/

Well, here we are. I'm stealing chris's iPod touch to write this. He never even uses it, which is really a shame.

Missing people. Missing fic. Missing the world.

Badum badum, you'll always be my baby...

I R ZOMBIE NURRRR.

AP interview with patrick.

MY OTP IS STILL ALIVE AND WELL, KTHNKS. god, i love how much these boys love each other.

i really missed fob, honestly and truly. i'm so glad they're still around to make me smile on cloudy days. :]

to my flist: ummm, i haven't been reading you? ... *fails* /o\ i've just been spending all my time fucking around on gaia and webpbn and making out with chris. epic faaaaail.

college is great. boyfriends are great. rainy days are great. my roommate is great. life is great. :3

:D

that face pretty much sums up EVERYTHING right now.

yesterday, chris and i celebrated our monthiversary. \o/ i know, that's not actually that long, but STFU IT IS AWESOME.

and TODAY I GOT MY COPY OF G:BPOTO&F:IGSWLH IN THE MAIL. \o/ \o/ \o/ OMG IT IS SO SHINY AND PRETTY AND GORGEOUS, BLAYNE, I'M MAKING ALL OF MY COLLEGE FRIENDS READ IT. I LOVE RYANROSS AND HIS SOUL-CRUSHING DISDAIN.

i also got a package from my dad. it was full of ramen and issues of Rolling Stone and AP. :]

...

:D ♥

so. last night.

( lj-cut for hilarity and ... stuff. )

things i need to say, er, type...

1) my new default icon is amazing. miranda made it for me. SKIDOOSH.

2) i'm writing an essay. just now. that is due at 9:10. i need to not procrastinate.

3) chris can be kind of a douche. but not in the bad way. dammit, i am HORNY and he DOES NOT HELP THE SITUATION. D< a two-minute goodnight kiss is not the best way to get me calm and focused to write an essay. JUST FYI, Y'KNOW.

4) WHAT THE FUCK, UNIVERSE. STOP ITTT. i almost got a job today, working on the obama campaign. but then they were like, "oh. wait. sorry, you have to be 18." FUCK MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK. D:<

5) as of like 2 hours ago, it is our 3 week anniversary. shut up, we both keep track and he brought it up first so we are just weird freaks together omg.

6) the reason i'm scared to be, y'know, intimate with chris is because i'm scared i won't like it and i'll suddenly realize i'm a lesbo or something and i'll break his heart. D: his precious little hearttt. HE SAYS HE ALWAYS ATTRACTS LESBIANS, GUYS. i'm pretty sure, though, that since i am not 100% grossed out by his p33n, i am not 100% gay. right? right. D: omg you guys, it's making me feel sickkkk. that might be the exhaustion talking, though. but. SELF-DOUBT, I HAS IT.

7) i miss my friends and family, even if it doesn't seem like i do. i've just been keeping myself too busy to realize it. maybe that's a bit of my nauseous-feeling-ness too.

8) okay, okay, i know you're probably sick of me talking about sex and my sexuality crises, but. guys, penises. THEY ARE SO WEIRD. D: vag is weird too, but at least i'm *used* to that. ...... PEEEEENIIIISSSSS.

9) OH, MOST ADORABLE THING EVER: CHRIS TALKING ABOUT HOW I AM A VIRGIN, AND HE WANTS TO WAIT TO HAVE ACTUAL SEX UNTIL THERE'S *LOVE* BECAUSE HE WANTS MY FIRST TIME TO BE MAGICAL. ~MAGICAL.~ HIS EXACT WORDS. he was totally half-asleep when he said it, but omg it still gets him brownie points because it is the most precious thing ever. his first was completely awful, from what i've heard, and he wants my first time to be better. LOVE, GUYS. so precious. ♥

10) because i like even numbers, i got a mocha from Maggie's (the cafe on campus). it is yummy and delicious.

but now i must write that goddamn essay. LEAVE ME COMMENTS WITH ADVICE/CRITICISMS/ANYTHING.

hey look, a meme!

( do this, or i'll be a sad woobie! )

current favorites:

physical activity: SELF DEFENSE CLASS!! followed closely by making out with chris.

color: red or purple. THEY ARE THE COLORS OF MY MOTHERFUCKIN SOUL, MOTHERFUCKERS.

sound: the sound of my whole self defense class shouting in unison, CHIA.

time of day: early evening/night. it's so beautiful outside.

shoes: NONE. i walked back from class BAREFOOT. and i didn't even step on anything sharp!

song: I DON'T CARE. \o/ oh, fob, never leave me again. The best of us can find happiness in misery ♫

e-wifey who i still love and always will no matter what: heychristine. ♥

OMG ADRENALINE, I LOVE MY LIFE. :DDD

things of importance:

1. FALL OUT BOYS: NEVER LEAVE ME AGAIN. I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU. *cuddles them all*

2. i. want. a goddamn. lip ring. NAO. >:[

3. funny story. chris and i have been 'dating' for like, 6 days now. and basically, he likes to be VERY VERY HONEST about EVERYTHING. including his inappropriate and awkward boners. xD so um. i got to hear about how he hasn't jerked off since before coming up to the campus, and how annoying it is, and blah blah blah. so. he was getting a little handsy the other day. like, HANDSY. i told him to just GO JERK OFF ALREADY, OMG STOP MOLESTING ME LOL. he left and we met up a while later in the cafeteria for dinner. he leaned over and said, really quiet, "so, imagine walking up to a drinking fountain and getting sprayed by a fire hose." !!!!!!! AHAHA WHUT, TMI DUDE BUT WHATEVER, AWESOME.

oh and then a minute later someone said "chris, you look really tired," and we looked at each other and just started laughing. ohmygod, i laugh way too much around him.

maggie's, the cafe on campus, has really good chocolate. it's organic, locally-made stuff. and they also have doritos. motherfuckin win/win situation, there.

gerard's hair amuses me to no end, as it is the color my hair was last summer. ahahahaha.

ASHLEE MADE A JOKE IN HER BLOG ABOUT PETE WEARING HER PANTS. THAT MADE MY LIFE, A LITTLE.

and classes are going well. my music teacher played Take Five in class today as an example of a weird time signature, and i think i might have been the only person who expected it. i made a dumb noise of victory and got weird looks. but i get weird looks all the time anyway, so. nothing new there.

HAVE I MENTIONED HOW MUCH I WANT A GODDAMN LIP RING??? D: i'm only nervous because you hear horror stories and the 'after care' thing on wikipedia says you shouldn't make out with people for a long time after getting one and idek if chris would like it or not........... wtf, why am i worrying about what some BOY will think about it? DDD: dudes. halp.

p.s. I NEED MOAR SLEEP.

ETA: My Johari/My Nohari

so um. i have a boyfriend now.

... :3

so apparently i don't suck entirely at flirting?

story time!

there's this boy, chris, who lives in the dorm connected to mine. he is awesome and sweet and hilarious and can be very serious and stands up for his beliefs and stuff. we met briefly on the first day and discovered our common link- my roommate, gwynnie. he's been friends with her for years. so i got to hang out with him & gwynnie & another Katy who is chris's like, bff. we watched obama's speech the second night, and after a while gwynnie and katy left to do other stuff. so chris and i ended up talking and talking and talking about anything and everything, and we got ice cream at the cafe on campus, and kept talking. we ended up back in my dorm room, still talking, and after a while gwynnie wanted to go to sleep so we got in my bed and shut off the light and talked quieter than we were before. so that went on till about 3:30 in the morning, when gwynnie rolled over and told us to shut up so she could get some sleep. so i was like, "okay, sorryyyy." but like, chris ended up spending the night in my bed. we SNUGGLED. when we hadn't known each other for even 24 hours. crazyyy.

so then last night we were tired from not getting enough sleep, so we bailed on the fun stuff other people were doing to watch pan's labyrinth in the dark in my room. and talked over like half the movie. (we talk a lot, fyi. in case you didn't get that.) and like, we ended up going into a different room to watch the last of the mohicans, because gwynnie wanted to sleep. sooooo... we snuggled and were half asleep, and i eventually made him go to bed because he was incoherent and loopy.

and today i ended up crying on him when he asked how i could even know if i was really in love, but totally not in the bad way, and he told me that i am a beautiful person and i shouldn't doubt myself so much. (all i could come up with was that i just *know*, that she makes me feel like no one else ever has.)

i also had the college talk with christine. and she said she wouldn't be mad at me for liking someone. but i already feel guilty, because we have this really sudden really close relationship where he hits on me jokingly and i go along with it and i kind of like him seriously but i really don't want to make a move and feel like i'm using him, because he knows i am emotionally committed to christine. WTF LIFE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO NOT DO THIS TO ME AFTER HIGH SCHOOL. xD

but right now i am actually just really amused by the whole thing. and chris is lying on my bed playing music and being awesome. so i'ma go interact with him. yeah.

so, about that new fob picture...

1) PATRICK OMG. HIS HANDSSS. HIS FEEET. HIS WHOLE LITTLE SELFFFF.

2) Joe's hair! IT IS BIGGER THAN HIS HEAD. I CALL SHENANIGANS.

3) PETE ACTUALLY LOOKS DECENT. IT MUST BE PHOTOSHOPPED. GWYNNIE AGREES.

4) ANDY HURLEY: YOUR BEARD WILL KILL US ALL. SHAVE PLZ. D:

all in all, i am wayyyy too excited for this new album. they are so precious and amazing and adorable and i am remembering why i fell in love with them in the first place.